oh my body aches..

practice was Really hard last night. The whole practice was uncalled for..it was top 2 with the worst practices ever that i have had. Alan lane and me just could not fall right and i kept on hurting my lower back and my wrist. alot of thoughts were going on and to me it just felt like the team wanted one thing and the leaders wanted another..and since i was sooo pms-ing and i was not in a good mood anyways i cried. well it was better for me to cry then to scream at someone or a leader..so i cry.

Matt wooten is going to play for me for my solo..i'm happy.
so i have a little relief on all the fine arts pressure...i'm hoping to tackle my short sermon tomorrow or maybe next week.

i get to see courtney tomorrow..so i am happy. well sad too..since she is leaving.
But with courtney she doesn't care so i can go and talk about anything i need to and it slides right of her back. She offers her advice and most of the time it helps. So hopefully we will have fun and make a memory before she leaves. I will miss her though..i always knew that she would leave...and i'm happy for her though. She's moving on and making her name known and sharing her amazing talent with the world. i just hope when i leave for new york or LA that people will be proud of me too..and that they will actually miss me, But that they support me with all their hearts. i think about the future....and i hope i can make a name for myself. Modeling has been an interest lately..and i'm pretty set on trying out for Americas next top model just to see what they have to say. when they tell me no i'll go to college somewhere around and get my Fashion Degree and hopefully i can start out as a fashion Buyer. But my goal is to become a fashion stylist..and i then i can have the money and the resources to do all my other dreams. Sing, act, model, and be a photographer. I just hope God starts opening some doors soon...because the sooner i start in the fashion world the more time i'll have to Speak his name through modest by glamours clothing.