it's been forever....

Alot has happened this summer and i never once updated this thing. the thing that i have discovered..the older you get the busier you get. So lets see...i went to camp:) and then i went to courtneys house for a week. I went to slackattack...then i turned 16:). For my birthday i got a car!!! and from all of my family i recived my car decked out in hello kitty. Then the end of august i went to the beach with ms. morgan powers:) and i also started school. suckish but hey i'm a JUNIOR BABY!!! :)!!!! now i'm on my way to getting a job:)!! my brother in law knows someone up in the up at ulta! Now i'm just waiting when i can go get an interview. :) i'm so excited..and stressed about it. all i know is if God wants me to juggle school, church, life, and ulta that he will let it happen. Someone still doesn't know about the whole lets spend the rest of our lifes together..but i'm ok with that. He's been growing in God so much that i'm almost amazed. he has changed so much this year is Auhmazing.

I'm also trying to get a jump start on fine arts. the theme this year is.....DRUM ROLL PLEASE...."this could change everything!" so cool right!!?? anyways i have an awesome idea for short sermon..i have somewhat of an idea on what song i'm using for my solo human video. I think i am going to use people get ready by misty edwards..but i need a song to go with it. HELP ME PLEASE??!!?? anyways..so yeah..get it done now before i get nuts with holidays and work:)

So thats it....OHHH and i'm dying for a leather jacket for fall. that and i new hat...and some big lovely jackets and sweaters.!!! oh and i got black knee flat boots!! amazing..i love them:)

oh how i wish..

i could really get this blog a going..but it just seems like i don't have enough hours in a day. i hardly ever get to get online and "surf" the internet. i barely have time each day to check all my sites and catch up on what i missed the day before. Schools almost out and i'm having camp cravings. i'm ready to go..i'm already thinking out of ways to help to win clean cabin!!!! isn't that crazy...oh how did i end up with that job. OH i remember..my first year of youth camp and my sister was in charge of doing it and if i didn't help her i was dead...lol..

anyways i'm ready for school to be done with...so i can really get this place a going. thats one of my summer goals. hopefully i'll post another blog about my list of goals but its too late tonight to think of any..


But all i can think of is my favorite person is coming home or already home. Courtney Acker. well i forget to not say home she's coming for a visit. Anyways i have plans with her for tuesday..and i can not wait!!!! i miss her so much!!!!!!!!!!!!! she is always my rock. my crazy colorful rock..but she's a rock!


anyways good night...i'm going to play a game of pinball on gaia and eat a cookie and go to bed.

OH WAIT this is a fashion blog and i said nothing about fashion...i'm on the search for summer shorts and clothing. top on my list is gladiator shoes and ummmmm maybe highwaisted shorts???? i can't decide..what do you think? i think i can pull it off but i just don't know if i want to tho...i like them. i just need to FIND SOME and try them on. can you send me a link of a site with some on there...good low price range please...

anyways..thanks guys!! love you!

until then..

i can't wait til the day that he finds out and he tells me. past few times that I've truly connected with God was just sitting there praying secretly for him...and in the's moments i hear God say not yet, its not time. i understand what I'm supposed to do in this time...prepare myself for my life and our life. To Grow in God as deep as i can..and never stop. But i can't help but to pray that God would just tell him...but i understand it is in God's timing. I know God is working in him soooo much right now and I'm so excited because i get to sit back and watch while i know the big secret. Its almost like I'm playing hide and go seek...like I'm there, but I'm not.( and i don't even think anyone will get that) God has HUGE plans for me...and I'm ready to begin building my future. I've been thinking a lot about the collage i want to go to..its in Atlanta and i would take fashion design and business. i thinking about all the things i want to do..model,act, design, style people, sing, dance, and just Life life. What i think will make me different from any other person in Hollywood or new york is that i have God on my side. I believe God has called me to do all these things...but most importantly is that i believe God has called me to Change the normal in Hollywood. Flip everything upside down...


So for today i get to sit back and grow in God. I can also sit back and watch him grow in God...and wait and pray for the day that God chooses to tell him. I can start praying and dreaming of what God is going to do with my life. I can start praying for God to put people into my life that can help me climb the ladder up to the top...
one day he will know..one day i will be rich and famous (but rich to support my friends in missions..and Famous to shine God's life and preach his name everyday with my life)..and one day all these things and more will be mine..


but for now i will sit back..and watch in amazement of how Great my God is.

i found this today..and it was pretty amazing..so i thought i would share.

Please pray for me..my head is spinning and i'm falling into all the stress.
i had another bad dream about fine arts..its pretty crazy.
Also pray for Alex Skipper..she is having surgery today..and me and the guys are meeting today to try to work out worship team...because i can NOT sing what she sang.

i'm kinda sick of peoples thoughts and "advice" with all my fine arts stuff..

just kinda sick of people making me feel like crap with their "advice".

i'm kinda sick of being stress out..and i'm starting to break-out.

i'm kinda sick of school...

I'm kinda sick of him not knowing...and it hasn't even been a week!

I'm kinda sick of not knowing where we are going instead of south carolina.

I'm kinda sick of hearing this fly flying around...
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I'm kinda happy that fine arts is here...

i'm kinda happy that i can think about fine arts instead of other things..

I'm kinda glad that i'm almost done with school....

I'm kinda glad i know even if he doesn't....

I'm kinda glad that we are going somewhere different than SC.

I'm kinda glad that its hot outside so we can have the back door open so flys can come in.

i'll update later...

because i'm still trying to understand everything thing that has happened.

lets just say some very life changing things..
and i think the most amazing thing is that no one told me..i finally heard him by myself. It just proves that if you really want to hear God that you really have to listen and you have to feel TOTAL freedom.

oh my body aches..

practice was Really hard last night. The whole practice was uncalled for..it was top 2 with the worst practices ever that i have had. Alan lane and me just could not fall right and i kept on hurting my lower back and my wrist. alot of thoughts were going on and to me it just felt like the team wanted one thing and the leaders wanted another..and since i was sooo pms-ing and i was not in a good mood anyways i cried. well it was better for me to cry then to scream at someone or a leader..so i cry.

Matt wooten is going to play for me for my solo..i'm happy.
so i have a little relief on all the fine arts pressure...i'm hoping to tackle my short sermon tomorrow or maybe next week.

i get to see courtney tomorrow..so i am happy. well sad too..since she is leaving.
But with courtney she doesn't care so i can go and talk about anything i need to and it slides right of her back. She offers her advice and most of the time it helps. So hopefully we will have fun and make a memory before she leaves. I will miss her though..i always knew that she would leave...and i'm happy for her though. She's moving on and making her name known and sharing her amazing talent with the world. i just hope when i leave for new york or LA that people will be proud of me too..and that they will actually miss me, But that they support me with all their hearts. i think about the future....and i hope i can make a name for myself. Modeling has been an interest lately..and i'm pretty set on trying out for Americas next top model just to see what they have to say. when they tell me no i'll go to college somewhere around and get my Fashion Degree and hopefully i can start out as a fashion Buyer. But my goal is to become a fashion stylist..and i then i can have the money and the resources to do all my other dreams. Sing, act, model, and be a photographer. I just hope God starts opening some doors soon...because the sooner i start in the fashion world the more time i'll have to Speak his name through modest by glamours clothing.