until then..

i can't wait til the day that he finds out and he tells me. past few times that I've truly connected with God was just sitting there praying secretly for him...and in the's moments i hear God say not yet, its not time. i understand what I'm supposed to do in this time...prepare myself for my life and our life. To Grow in God as deep as i can..and never stop. But i can't help but to pray that God would just tell him...but i understand it is in God's timing. I know God is working in him soooo much right now and I'm so excited because i get to sit back and watch while i know the big secret. Its almost like I'm playing hide and go seek...like I'm there, but I'm not.( and i don't even think anyone will get that) God has HUGE plans for me...and I'm ready to begin building my future. I've been thinking a lot about the collage i want to go to..its in Atlanta and i would take fashion design and business. i thinking about all the things i want to do..model,act, design, style people, sing, dance, and just Life life. What i think will make me different from any other person in Hollywood or new york is that i have God on my side. I believe God has called me to do all these things...but most importantly is that i believe God has called me to Change the normal in Hollywood. Flip everything upside down...


So for today i get to sit back and grow in God. I can also sit back and watch him grow in God...and wait and pray for the day that God chooses to tell him. I can start praying and dreaming of what God is going to do with my life. I can start praying for God to put people into my life that can help me climb the ladder up to the top...
one day he will know..one day i will be rich and famous (but rich to support my friends in missions..and Famous to shine God's life and preach his name everyday with my life)..and one day all these things and more will be mine..


but for now i will sit back..and watch in amazement of how Great my God is.